"Often people attempt to live their lives backwards: they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want so that they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then, do what you need to do, in order to have what you want." -Margaret Young
And so a new year begins. And I try to strip away everything of what is and what has become in order to find what I want it to be. And the process is hard and I struggle, but I find that the small glimpses of an authentic life and no longer being detached from the person I am and the life I am leading are worth every bit of the pain it takes to see these things for what they are. And so I go back to the beginning and start to peel away the layers that have covered up the simple hopes and dreams of a happy and real life.