Thursday, December 27, 2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
I love alone time. It’s like visiting a special place with no rules. A place where you don’t have to listen to anyone but yourself and you can do exactly what you want to do the way you want to do it without worrying about what other people think and without needing to justify any how’s or why’s.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I love my best friend Amber, because she always knows exactly what to say.
i remember when you had more dreams than hours in the day
you were all write this and act that
and dog this and vet school that
and all sorts of really fun new ideas
and then what you got handed was producing
not acting or writing
and we take what we are handed because it is easy
but when we take what we are handed we stop thinking about what we really want
but i am here to remind you that although quitting your job is utterly horrifying,
staying at it will kill you
you deserve more than a sense of security
you deserve to be happy"
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Friday, December 07, 2007
I love to feel excited about something. Anything. Tomorrow is my first gymnastics lesson in about 23 years. I can't wait to try all of those things I remember loving as a kid and moving my body in new ways. When I got the phone call yesterday to confirm the lesson (it wasn't easy finding a place willing to teach an adult gymnastics!) I was so giddy with excitement that I squealed. It felt so great to feel that anticipation bubbling up inside. That is definitely a feeling that I need to find a way to elicit again as often as possible.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Monday, December 03, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Monday, November 26, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
Friday, November 16, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
All of this counting down allows me to focus rather constantly on the present and the 29 days that are right in front of me. And I think in some ways that is a cop out. Because it is easy to think about what already is. I think that is what is referred to as dwelling. It's much harder to think about the future and figuring out what it really is that makes me happy in this world. Because that requires decisions, and change and inevitably mistakes. So, time to face the facts and each day recognize one thing that makes me happy or that I want to explore. And today's one thing is MUSIC.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
Why is change so scary? It is truly shocking to me as I am counting down the number of work days left, that when I stop and think of the changes to come, I start to reconsider. Maybe this isn't so bad. Maybe nothing else will ever be better. Maybe I shouldn't leave. Maybe I will regret leaving. It is going to be work to figure out a new city and a new job and new people. But maybe, just maybe, all this newness and work will be just what I need to make me feel alive again. Because getting up every day and knowing exactly what it holds for you just isn't much fun. and i definitely am in need of more fun.