Thursday, April 28, 2005

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

I am...

Originally uploaded by sunnycbb.

looking forward with the fresh perspective of a weekend spent out of town. New people, new places and a little time to reflect on where I am and where I want to go. It seems so easy to define and yet so hard to do. It is very clear to me that I need to let go of a lot of control in order to move forward. And as I slowly let go of the reins- the fear is overwhelming. Try to remember that feeling afraid is what it feels like to really be living. What is the point of living every day in a safety zone that you have carefully created? LET GO.

Thursday, April 21, 2005


Getting in my car
and driving
windows open
sun beating down
glorifying my left arm
while my right arm is busied
with the selection of music
and beverages
and treats.

Anticipating the destination
as much as enjoying the journey
a break from the norm
a brief glimpse of the other me
the adventurous one
the carefree one
the one of the one.

Thursday, April 14, 2005


I sit at my desk and contemplate a stranger reading my blog. I started the blog in secret- an outlet for my thoughts- often dark ones that I feared sharing with those in my world. And then slowly, hints began to leak out of me....I told the two closest to me that it existed... but didn't share the address. and then i did. one. and then the other. and then once the fear had ebbed and safety had flowed- i replied to other postings and included my web address assuming that no one would actually click on it. And then today- I blinked my eyes several times when I read at the bottom of my last post...1 comments.

And suddenly the sun shines a little brighter. To know that none of us are really alone in this.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

A Reminder.

To be nobody but yourself
in a world which is doing its best
to make you everybody else,
means to fight the hardest human battle ever
and to never stop fighting.