Implosion.

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Originally uploaded by Rosie O'Donnell.

There are times when the anger hits me so fast and so furious that I feel like I am imploding. It can be brought upon by something quite small and in an instant my hands are shaking, i am sick to my stomach and can't concentrate on anything. Colors and emotions swirling like mad behind my eyes.

Listen.

stress makes my stomach turn
and I wonder…
did I never learn how to manage it-
or is it a sign?

my mind wrestles with the fact that stress
is based on how you internalize things.
i can’t let it bother me.
yet my mind is warped with justification
and guilt of the bigger picture.

but the body speaks the truth.
it is not concerned with what this means for my career
or my relationship
or my financial future.
my body just knows that it feels wrong.
it is telling me that this isn’t working.

and you can choose to listen
or you can wait for it to bury itself
but it will be back.